Friday, April 30, 2010

The coffee is never strong enough

Dear Stranger X,

As time passes by, you'll realise that life's actually a bitch and that things that you were so optimist about last time often slaps you doses of analytical problems; like why can't you have both, a wicked lifestyle and a domesticated girlfriend. A sane family that is suppose to support in most of your logical undertakings but your undertakings would be leaving hometown and pursue something bigger, better. Or, a foreign boyfriend who wants to run with you and bask the awesomeness of the sun and a working lifestyle, that feeds your dinner and lunch. Clash.

My sister once told me, something simple yet so powerful. I remember it 'till now cause often not I forgot that life is entirely about it - choices.

When you're put into a position where you can't have it all, what's left for you have to do is to make a choice. Sacrificing or beneficial is entirely up to how we look at it. I'm in a shitty position myself, to help you would be the least I could do. I have given so many advices to people, which I believe might have lingered somewhere in their minds or heads (or least I hope so), unfortunately I myself sometimes can't even walk, my own walk. Sigh.

You stumbled upon people that are so amazing, you wonder what really happened and how you met each other. Then new people come to your life. The old ones phases out like an old book - familiar with grand events unfolded but simple details are forgotten along the way, and you questioned what happened - what made you traded your old life to a new one.

Time? Money? Proximity?

I want to help you overcome shitty days, like how Jack helped Rose realised there's more to life than luxury spoons and psycho-rich boyfriends. Needs so much more than being there, needs a lot of care, heart and persistence - or icy cold statements - I jump you jump. There's so much more than just being there.

You are a happy person. Yes, the world knows it. But give yourself a break sometimes and understand that not every conflict and complications are comedic no matter how funny we look at it, at times - conflicts are often best accepted as reflective.

Point is, I'm there. I'm here. I'm everywhere you want me to be. So long as you want me to be there, and help you and the rest of the world find the meaning of life and you will be able to pull it. I am struggling myself - but more hands are better than one.

"There, there, baby,
It's just text book stuff,
It's in the ABC of growing up,
Now, now darlin',
Oh don't lose your head,
Cause none of us were angels..." - Heap, Speeding Cars

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Thursday, April 29, 2010


Listening to - Kings of Leon Be Somebody


Life’s awesome people! From SMSes, weird random MSN conversations, phonecalls and to just plain dragging me out – I truly appreciate it. You guys are damn cheekylar.

Took my camera to the office on Wednesday and had a field day with SweetSara! No seriously. We really had one of the best day evah. I love SweetSara. She’s like a replica of me only skinnier, nicer and prettier. Okaylah, basically she just thinks like me


A lot like me!

Scroll down to check her out! David says she pulls off the Tai-tai (is this how you spell it?) look very well. Kuala Lumpur Tower is one of my office view. Everytime I refill my water, I check the tower out reminding myself where I am - friggin' KL. Just this kampung girl battling out with KL.

This week is sequels week. I was lucky enough to be able to catch Ipman 2 (please see this retarded post and you’d understand - click here) and Ironman 2! Of course life is good with free movies, but next day face the musicloh have to wake up early to work. Zombified cause (somehow, for some weird reason eventhough I reach home at 11pm or earlier) I would end up sleeping at about 12 – 1am after these screenings. Mystery.

Here's Karen Mayer (someone I work very closely with), SweetSara and VenDee the psychotic intern. Who:

1. Immaculately answers to us that Kajang is famous for Durian.

2. Comes up with answers that none of us can ever react or maybe even respond to.

3. Swears on Gareth Gates.

Here's to the three awesome people that produces lame jokes like how MTV play Justin's Baby song. Every damn second.

Daren, Justin & Robin

What do you call nuts on your chest?
- Chestnuts!

What do you call nuts on your wall?
- Walnuts!

What do you call nuts on your chin? *grins like a retard*
- .......Blowwwjooo--! *I screamed eew before any of them could continue*

Here's Sarakhooooo! She's my partner in crime when it comes to a lot of things. If I could list all the things we discussed and do together - it would be urm, breach of sisterhood. Too dangerous.

Karen is the ultimate Rock Band artist/ celebrity. She aced in every instrument - I assume in expert by now.

I remember once when Sara and I took the lrt, there's this foreign (like International kind) couple who kept looking at us, eventually burst out some questions regarding this place they're visiting. After that;

Guy 1: Are you both Malaysians?
Sara: Yeah.
Me: *nods* Yeah we are.
Guy1: Ohh I see. Cause you guys don't really look like. She's white and you're BLACK.
Me: ....(trying really hard not to laugh) Well... she's Chinese and I'm of another race!
Guy1: OHHH.

Sara: Damn blunt right that guy?

I rarely play rockband in the office, don't really know why actually. Probably cause I'm terrible at it. Heh.

Here's where I seat, and see the desktop next to mine? That's where Sara seats! Haha. That's why it seems so mischievous whenever only both of us giggled. We share stupid little jokes together - cause we're cool like that, and .. we sit very near to each other. *_*

Next view is Sheraton KL swimming pool area. Which to my count, have only seen or rather mostly see half naked old angmohs before. Always wrong timing when it comes to the younger ones.

My frontal seating view - Jestina!

My rear seating view - Rachel! If you haven't noticed, the office is orange!

One of the best thing about working in this industry is that you get to stumble upon really good blogs that’s just worth your minutes. Simple blogs are usually more personal and relatable, the fancy ones are entertaining yes, but sometimes you just need a bit of human touch in your posts. Well, at least I do.

Like this simple fella, only four posts but seems like a good honest read.

This week will be awesome!

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Read it.

Okay eating tonight will be quite pathetic. Not sure what to eat or rather where to eat. I mean okay, there's Piccadilly's that's like a stone throw away from my place (quite literally) and maybe SS2 where I love the pasar malam there.

I love Ais Kacang Cendol moments.

But really, where do I really go to tonight?

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

This morning,

I woke up understanding why some people can constantly post some emoshit on their blog that I frankly loathes to read.

I really can finally understand.

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Monday, April 26, 2010

To a racism extend

Heard this from Daren when I was having teh tarik with him yesterday. It was so funny, I almost spurt out some hot tea to his face.

Robin's grandma was so racist... at one point, she refuses to eat oreo.

wtffffffff hahahaha.

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Feeling old & some long winded post

Listening to - Bunkface Soldier

I can actually feel the aging process enveloping my whole being. Not entirely due to the saggy cheeks, nor the grey hairs, and most importantly the ever so fatigue body - if a measure was to be done, it would be based on the terrifying serious conversations I tend to indulge in, the lack of response to other people because of too much thinking, and much more factors that I believe will surface later in life.

I fear uncertainties. The weird thing is, I am not a life's grinch. Or so I thought. You know, I am freaking worried about - that grey future. That that grey future I can't seem to paint of now. I am feeling rather melancholy about so many things in life at this point, I am not sure anymore.

I wanted to post something funny just now in this post, but .. funny left me. I am all alone in the room, with no pretentious feelings or rather false joy to cover up.

I don't think I'm currently depressed, I'm just - not sure. Even typing this gives me a weird sensation. Tell me, is this life? My support is all around, but I just cannot pin point these things that's been bugging me. I really cannot. It's like this, no but not really, but that, but no not really either.

I envy you whose life is falling to places, or rather promises you something. I am scrambling for reasons, I am holding onto things that I think are giving up on me. I am feeling scattered, confused, dazed, tired. Shit, this feeling is damn weird.

I am most worried when my family and friends read this. It's always scarier for them to read something they're not sure of. I know, frankly I am not sure either.

Am I,

all the smiles people see me of? Or the strength I thought I have? Or the friend I wanted in people? Or the simple soul who's trying too hard? I tell you, growing up leaves no space for breathing at times. It just happens so fast.

So hello emoness! I didn't invite you. It must have been the mind-self, because everyone goes through the same thing. Tell me this is just the trick of the night and I will wakeup feeling like Barney or Spongebob tomorrow morning.

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

How's work been?

Had a company screening a couple of weeks back, Ven Dee took some photos, and I'm here to share three of them. Heh.

Check out her blog to see some of our photos during the Gatsby Deodorant Street Fair! Not photos of us busting it out (but we were), more of before the whole thing began.

Meet Fresh! One of the hardest working Nuffie who keeps updating every single thing. Also, our Blogger Relations. <3

That's Ven Dee! The blurrest intern you'll ever meet. But you know, I love you like that! Thanks for helping me in so many things, in fact - thanks for asking me whether I need assistance as well. I will miss you, and counting those days when you're not around anymore!

...drama. Heh.

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

If I am Ip Man master, I would …

Become a heroine! and save the world from all things crime and evil! *cue Superman' music* I am thinking of creating my own superhero suit and instead of having supernatural powers like those in errr, Heroes... I have friggin' awesome Kung Fu!

I would have like free Kung-Fu lessons and teach all innocent creatures (think Hamsters, think small kids) to equip themselves with some KungFu shit.

I tell you, it's like Jet Li in some chubby lady! WOOT! You cannot imagine that anywhere.

Image source:

PLEASE ANTICIPATE MY KUNGFU POSE! (because it's embarrassing to do it here in the office, I shall vain it out back home thank you!)

Told you it's retarded. I am trying to edit the photo as much as I can with Photo Manager and Paint (because my work laptop has no Adobe). I hope you're having as much laugh as I was when I told my housemate to take kungfu posed photo of me.

He was like: ......WHAT?! *rolls on the floor laughing*

*Please kindly ignore the Winnie the Pooh stickers on my door, wasn't me*

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Haha! You Malaysians damn funny!

You mean say no to Teh Tarik to sober up after a crazy clubbing night out?!

That's preposterous. I voted, NO. Surprise surprise!

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

New toys!

That said, yesterday was a full-day event. It was the largest bloggers gathering in one event for Gatsby Deodorant Street Fair. Helped quite a fair-bit, when I reached home I was feeling rather... okay. But not the next day.

Woke up with an orchestra of cracks on my body. Terrible, terrible feeling :'(

Sunday is officially my favourite day of the week. Most of the time spent indoor, with some awesome people in the world, not only do I feel the fattest on Sundays, I feel the laziest as well. It's like, the perfect combination for a lazy Sunday. Anyone is welcome to my place on Sundays :)

I have a couple of new toys as additions to my ever so funky room. Both which I bought/ brought from Aussie.

Meet Travisa. That purplish pink pony which I manage to bring (as big as me when I'm crawling possibly) all the way from Adelaide. I remember Justin being so annoyed at me naming all things Travis, haha. I don't knowlah, Travis is such a cute pet name. Grew up with it since I was 8 or 9. I remembered naming every insect Travis.

Then this new toy car, that I fell in love with so much! Mum and I were leaving Adelaide airport back to KL when mum told she has so many Aussie dollars left. She told me to grab anything I think that's "nice". So I went berserk.

I wanted to buy every damn random thing I saw, (think Aussiefied play cards, weird looking plush animal toys, some snake thingy) until I finally saw this;

Too damn cute! I LOVE IT! I saw a VW band like this once nearby college and it has a sticker of The Shins on one of the windows and I was like, ey! The awesome mobile!

Heee a cuter version of it! I play with it when I'm bored and ... needed simple entertainment :)

'Till then, have a good work week everyone! :)

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

This fine morning,

I found out my boyfriend might go to Aussie to continue his studies. Though only for half a year(unconfirmed) but the thought of another 6 months of separation, deprivation of all things kindness killed my day.

Mind says good on him, heart says screw this.

: ) :

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Someone like you

Listening to: Kings of Leon Closer

I rarely write about music. Find it rather an Indie-ish act.

Occasionally I will let you know what song I am currently listening to only to add more effect to what I’m feeling at that time. But this post will be about my new love, the new earcandy (check my Facebook status) that I’ve been looping every day. Last this happened was Lifehouse & The Shins.

I’m good with bands. I think bands comprises of sexy pieces that merge together for a reason. Scripted beautifully, and most of the time relatable to me; that’s when I categorise that band is artworthy and worth listening, worth mentioning. Or has this weird calling to me.

I <3 Kings of Leon.

It feels like their songs give me this creep on my thoughts a little too deep. Been giving me these words of advises – without actually hitting all the right buttons, but scarily sensible . It’s strangely satiable to any state of mind. Music’s crazy good and with all the right notes and chords combined in one album – I summed up that this band is the shit.

Frankly, I did not know they’ve been around since almost 10 years ago, like every other commercialized bands these days it only takes a few appearances on MTV for you to become a hit. Heck, they won Grammy’s Record of the Year last year. Truth is the Followills have been touring since forever, but who really knew? Only when I went to Adelaide to check out the pubs was I exposed to these awesome bands – played by locals.

Caleb’s vocal is sexy. This kind of roughed rugged vocal is either a yay or nay. Not a favourite of in betweens and often overlooked, rather heard. Remains the same throughout interviews – man of Caleb’s edginess is something I have consistencely loved. Think Jason Wade. Think that Italian dish Alejandro.

Okay I talk about Caleb too much.

Nathan rocked the drums on every number (what’s a band without a long haired drummer, seriously), while Cameron’s heat on guitar is sick and Michael completes the set. Remember Sex on Fire?

Only by the Night is 2 thumbs up, if not more. Special mention on Closer.

Let me finish the other 3 albums while you're reading :)

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Weekend, good.

Last Friday was meet new people day (night).

Met up with a few of Justin & Amai's friends, and got introduced to more new lingos then I could ever follow through when Jifai, Sam, Justin & Amai were together. I almost got seriously drunk that night, but thankfully brain was still functional well enough for me to stop and not get mightily embarrassed around new people, in new people's house.

Life's good 'cause I have amazing (crazy funny & downright retarded) support around me. I mean, life's been brutal to me so far. But I'd like to pull through. Think it would be the greatest strength one could have. Coming out from the jungle filled with crazy animals... alive. Still adapting to new things, still understanding new things.

To the people I love and care so much, I've made a montage on my wall - next to me.

Some of you guys will be in the next batch of printing. No worries, all of you awesome people sleeps with me everynight. By yours or my free will.


Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Cheers to,

Not to all the money in the world,
nor to the awesome lifestyle we rock too well.

But to happy days.

Happy days, when everything doesn't have to fall into places yet a smile is sincerely carved on your face. Sometimes happyness is just about everything a soul needs.


to Happy Days!

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

From Melbourne & Graduation in Adelaide

It's super ironic. Working in a blogging community has made my particular blog slowly dying off! Too busylah. It's either I choose to catch up with sleep, or go out with friends. I can never, ever juggle my 24 hours well. Or least, am trying.

Anyway, last week I went to Australia for my graduation! I am blessed to have such awesome bosses who granted my leaves. Thank you so much! Truly appreciate it.

I went to Melbourne first, and stayed the first night with Chee Hang. Who so sweetly let mummy slept on his bed, while he and I bunked on the floor. Damn funny. I woke up early in the morning to see him lying next to my leg. I almost stepped on his head O.O

Because we were there for only a day, we went walked around Flinders St.,

and somehow or rather, we reached this Melbourne Tourist Information lady who encouraged us to take the free tourist shuttle. Mum said yes (obviously, free & touristy) and much to my awesome delight Melbourne's pretty darn gorgeous. The art centres there were too many, I lost count after a few bus rounds. The next time I come, I'll make it a point to visit all of them! Doesn't matter if I go alone or what, but I'd love to visit all.

We stopped at Victoria Market for some shopping! I tell you, I kinda went crazy. There were so many stuffs that interest me there my mum and I went separate ways. Heee.

Last photo of us together. Hehe.

While walking (after stumbling upon each other), we came across some Turkish Festival! It was pretty awesome noting the fact that there's this massive Turkish population there in Melbourne. In fact, I think Melbourne is filled with all sorts of races. On the same day itself, Chee Hang & Li Ming told me that there's also a Greek Festival going on. We bought some Turkish food as well :)

After the whole jalan-jalan makan makan we went back to the City to head down to the State Library since mummy insisted on it so much. She got so excited seeing it, simply because she's a librarian herself and it's a custom of hers to visit all the libraries in the countries/ areas she's visiting. Cute kan!

Next day was flying to Adelaide day! Check out these awesome breakfast. I miss it already! Damn super kao meaty.

Vienna Chocolate, my favourite kind of chocolate! :)

Here comes Adelaide! Next day I took mum to this place called The Pancake Kitchen where it's the only place in Adelaide that is open for 24 hours. Restaurants that are open after 5 are like, diamonds in Adelaide I tell you.

Thennnnnn I met up witth my best friends back there! I've missed them so much it's insane. I'm seriously counting the days where we get to lepak again. I don't know, talking to you guys about everything including some of the boys here seem so.. natural.

Next day, mum and I went to jalan-jalan in the city. I tell you mum wants to take photos of everrrrryyything. Haha so cute!

One of Adelaide's few touristy snapworthy. It's a pig snacking out some trash from the bin.

Then there's the usual dinner gathering. If there's another thing I miss about Adelaide's simplicity is that we always have such dinners together. This bonding is so special, I truly appreciate it. It keeps us grounded and not only that, we save alot of money by doing so :)

There goes that Daddy.

The second last day of Adelaide was graduation! Sorry for the overexposed photo of mine, but this is the only photo of me not covered in my massive graduation robe. I was actually wearing a black and white polka dots toga dress, cardigan, with my hair pinned in half, mum's pair of diamond-esque earrings and this killer heels with studs behind it. When I say killer not as in they're drop dead gorgeous, but they were really killing my feet. Pfft.

Luckily I brought some flats in my bag. I think I would have just walked on kaki-ayam around the city if it was too unbearable.

Then the graduationnnn!

Audrey! I couldn't have graduated without you and our other Taylorians, as you were always there back even when in Diploma to have helped me in alot of things. I love you popek!

The customary mortar board throwing that we see too many on American TV. Yeay!

Alright, I shall end this post with a lovely flower my mum gave me for my graduation. She insisted on getting me a bigger bouquet but I told her no, as I needed something more special and simple :)

Love & peace,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.