I just dont care

"I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons, It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue" -Mraz, I'm Yours

I was in a complete fugly and broke mode, when my cousin called to go to TGIFs. I couldn't say no, because she wanted to hang out with me since so long 'cause I've been so busy, I decided to cancel my mamak plans, and went to the nearest Public Bank Instead.

I was always slightly prettier and maybe look richer than short pants, and a simple tee when I'm going TGIFs, because it's still a restaurant, you'd never know who you'd bump into, maybe your friends and whatnot, and you wouldn't want them to see you at your ____.


What one thing I realize, supposedly what love can do; is to make us feel completely comfortable with our own skin, or clothes for this matter. It wasn't weird, it was definitely understandable as in time, we tend to feel too casual or mafan, to look good all the time with or for someone we spend our days with everyday. Right?

Next thing you know, you're up and about with your completely flawed skin and body, covered with world's simplest clothes, next to the person you love. It's surreal. It's indescribably lovely.

Remember the complete opposite of you on your firsts dates, firsts snuggle, firsts 'occurences' or maybe even firsts 'I realize we hang out at the same placelah'. Yea, that was then, and you realized this known stranger of yours is already beginning to fill up your flawed confidence, he/ she too, was looking for comfort in one's soul.

Sweets and I have painted the town red with just casual pants and tees, which I find it as a symbolic of what the L word should be. And according to Mr Phillip, if you have the three, you could be on the right track; Intimacy, Passionate and Committment.

Which in this context, I'm guessing it's definitely closeness.

I would never dare putting on a remarkable RM29.90 short pants with a RM15.00 Project Phunk shirt to anywhere with a boyfriend, or friends, knowing the whole male population was on the loose at that time.

Not completely taking for granted the closeness I have with my boyrfriend and family, it keeps me reminded of there are days I should really look good, as it's for everyone's better- esp me. Throw some colours on my face and some 'feel good' clothes, it'll pile my confidence up again, once a while it makes everyone around me feel good too, and I bet you'd agree with me on this.

But now for most times, I feel damn good to say that;

short pants and tee-shirt, aint so bad afterall :)

Love,
Jacqkie.

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