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It was tuesday morning that i picked up the paper and as usual i would read the front cover. i literally stopped- when i was walking when i read on the news on the cover page.

"US Massacre- at least 22 killed including the gunman in a Massacre expected to be the worst in the US history. The shootings were first heard in the dorm and transferred through the campus."


i went jawdropped.
I seriously did. I was disturbed by the whole thing. i was trying to come up with all these assumptions that maybe that guy was against everyone and decided to pull the trigger on his campus mates. it's even bothering to know that it happened so frequent.
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I just watched the latest updated news on the US Massacre. The gunman was a south-korean engineering student and was reported a troubled-loner. TROUBLED-LONER. these two words kept repeating in my mind. TROUBLED-LONER. LONER. LONER.


as most of you might know, i have always wanted to be a psychologist. i have a thing for human behaviour. i have a thing for knowing what people are actually thinking and reasons they do what they did. the answers to these actions/behaviours.


It automatically crossed my mind, this one friend i know who have always been a loner.troublesome i dont know, but loner, yes he is. not to exaggarate or anything, but i personally think, only me and another few people are the only ones that talk to him much. the rest didnt seem to care of his existence. he's very much of a talker when you talk to him, somehow, he can be a bit awkward. but who isnt?


i'm guessing that is why people seem to pull themselves away from him when he's around. that happened right in front of my eyes, but i was nice enough to talk to him and gave him the chance to socialize. i gave him the time to show who and what he is, and yes he is just like any of us. except he wasnt given the chance to socialize to. ..and he never had the courage and confidence.


to be honest, i am one of his good friend. it doesnt take a genius to figure that out. he would lend me his umbrella when it rains, but when other girls and other people want to, he would say NO automatically. he would say goodbye to me everytime he sees me and he would borrow me stuffs when i need to. he's been really nice to me. and if you think he likes me, no, i personally dont think so. because, as i observed, if you are nice to him, he can be much nicer to you in return. his face shows more of a gratitude than a like. you know?


but,


i have seen him getting bullied by girls especially, so many times. people called him names and talked behind his back. they would ignore him at times and pretend he's not there. and the sadder part is, he kinda knew everyone thinks he's different.


when i read about the US Massacre, i wasnt sure whether he was to be blame for everything. as i dont know the whole story, i would also say that maybe, the bullies, the looks, the bias, the judgements, the tease was getting on his sense- and made him lost it.


if only people would stop these bullies and judgements, things like these wouldnt have happened. i mean- i hope wouldnt have happened. i know i dont know the real story, maybe he is "crazy", but there must be a reason why a young bright man would have chained the school campus door from inside and shot the students in class. must be. must be. must be...


STOP BULLIES AND JUDGEMENTS
. make friends with everyone, especially those with self-esteem problems. it has always been our self-esteem, our confidence, our charisma. lets turn the table now, it's about talking and communicating with people those who dont have confidents like we do. or to people who admires us. instead of showing them why are they not us/you, make them feel loved by people like us/ you. and most importantly, make them feel worth it.


Stop mean jokes.
you'll never really know when you hurt someone badly.


Love,
Jacqkie.

Comments

The Soundaholic said…
omg, kesian nye your friend tuh.

I would like to talk to a person who's a loner.

I hate it when I see someone walking and doing things alone. It seems wrong somehow.

Yes. Stop jokes and mean judgements. I mean stop mean jokes and judgements.

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