I see myself as an energetic and vibrant person.
A blanket word for all things the two words may carry. To be
able to do many things at one time, always keeping a positive attitude for the
most part and being able to find resolutions on difficult issues.
This year, I found myself having shifting energies within
me and I'm writing it down. I wasn’t sure it was even possible without me acknowledging them, what it
entails?? or where it came from but it IS happening.
I am no longer hasty.
I find this as the biggest shift in me. These days I see
opportunities as wrapped candies in a chocolate box. I had to pick the ones I
really wanted, instead of wanting the entire box. I no longer find myself
taking every single opportunity I see. It was really the case for me in my mid
20s. Now some people might see this as “lost opportunities”, but there are far
more important things I value right now – which I will tell you more.
Earlier this year contrary to probably everyone, I had set
NO goals.
I’m not even setting zero goals cause that would mean I
would have to remind myself to NOT having any goals (yknow what I’m saying).
Because what happens if I see something I really want to achieve along the
year? (okay this is mindfcked but I think you know what I mean) 🙆
So I set out there’ll be NO goals this year; not on career
not on personal life not on travels NOTHING. If anything comes to picture, it
will be evaluated then and there.
Which is why, I HAVE
MORE TIME NOW.
Like where did these extra times came from?
Not just “me time” or any of that bs, but just more time in
general. It’s insane.
Did these time hid under the pretence of “new hobbies” or “new
social hangouts” last time? I don’t know. All I know now is that I finally have
some time to read for pleasure (who else gets this??), gardening because I was
really curious and genuinely wanted to improve the landscape of the new home, I
sleep earlier on weeknights and God forbid I am now spending less time online
on TV series, social media and so on which is a BIG WIN.
Any time offline is as real as time gets.
I am at the peak of
womanhood 😋
Now that I live on my own, I have to do grocery shopping on
my own as well. It is weird how having to buy vegetables, milk and other
groceries for my self has made me opened my eyes in what being a woman/adult is. Like eating more carrots and decreasing the nuggets intake (I love nuggets ðŸ˜). Don’t even get me started on me walking around nekkid around the house. There are so many mirrors at home, I swear I know every inch of my body now thanks to them.
I know what I eat, I eat healthier and just feel better. I do many "adult things" which
I have always been open about including packing a bottle of red on a warm Saturday
afternoon. Drinking has always been there, but have you just relaxed by the sofa with a red on your hand and drink for PLEASURE? Not for networking, not for sleep, not for bad days, but for pleasure??? OH GOD. It's another world.
Spirituality is at its
peak ✌
On quiet nights, I pick up the bible to see what the
scriptures speak to me. I am never a religious person, but I must say going to
churches and attending divine mercies really make me feel calm. Like I actually
pray for people I don’t get along with. And it makes me feel better. This is
magic if only I knew this sooner?? Forgiveness is really not for others, it’s for me.
Writing this halfway I felt like dejavu. Have I written this
somewhere? Is this a passing fleeting moment? It doesn’t matter. I need to write it down. It's what I love to do.
The new energies in me are welcomed to stay. They are giving
me great perspectives in life, and I am also at the peak of feeling really good
about life right now. My heart is full of love and new revelations.
This year, I welcome a new decade into my life. It is
unchartered waters but I am feeling better with these new energies bubbling within me.
I think they’re meant to help me to welcome this new decade.
Thank you so much universe.
Love,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.
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