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Listening to John Mayer - Who Says
It's about time I update. Hands been itching to share with you so many things, but time has showed no mercy to me. I've been sleeping late, waking up late, from doing absolutely nothing, to juggling between four things to attend to at one time. Why four? I don't know.
Self doesn't seem to enjoy this. I like being busy. Consistently? Not really. But something productive always makes me feel useful, important. Perhaps, better when I sleep at night.
Sorry for not informing some of you that I'm in KK. It's been a blessing to have stumbled upon some of you guys in malls, restaurants and in church. Why all of us have grown up! I swear if I were to walk around aimlessly and not greeted you (even though I passed right in-freaking-front of you) I'm sorry. I'm "physically" challenged. I can't really see, and because I am too lazy to wear my glasses I tend to depend on my sister to identify my friends nearby. So please forgive me. I can assure you I'm not trying to be lansi :)
I'm coming to KL in 2 days.
Am I scared? Yes. With a million and one reasons. I am bothered about what my future holds for me. I am bothered about the things I will do in order to achieve what I want in life, or what I want to do in life. I am bothered about how I look or moreso how I'm perceived by other people when it comes to chasing my dreams. Sometimes. I don't even know what my dreams are anymore. Decisions have been constantly molded by current events in my life, I couldn't help but feel uncertain at times. So I brush up. Look through my past, to be acquainted with who I'm dying to be in future again. My family, my lover, favorite books, my papers, my friends, my hometown.
Then I'll get an idea again. Like I always do.
I'm in love. As always. But the song I'm playing now reminds me of the prettiest creature. My baby sister. She puts normality to shame, and puts wonders in simplicity and being hilarious. She's all the colour in my rainbow, and I hope the world appreciates and sees her like I do.
Well. You figured it out. It's that time of the post again where I start putting words of love into your head. See, I never gave up on love. My dear awesome friends, love doesn't come in a form of just a boy girl relationship. The wonders and miracles of love goes beyond appreciating one person. There's that morning. That old uncle in my favorite kopitiam. That nagging mum of mine, who from meters away could differentiate between a pair of dirty shoes and a "supposedly pillow" on the couch...
When you give so much, you could only receive so much. I know it's something when he,
Sings Mayer's Your Body is a Wonderland to me when I clearly know, it's nowhere near.Thinks my giggles are natural and adorable, even at groggy 3AM in the morning.Teases or pokes me just to see me flash even the grimmest smile.Hugs me at oddest situations, just 'cause.Thinks I'm the prettiest person in the world, with the perfect personality.Last but not least, when he falls for this dark-skinned, short, stubby, noisy, childish, naughty, messy, scatter-brain unconventional beauty.Quote, unquote.When everyone sees her, you saw me.
Love & peace,Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.