Monday, September 29, 2008

More holidays!

Honest truth, I'm enjoying my holidays very very much that I don't want to go back to college!

The thought of waking up early in the morning, with tons of assignments haunting me is giving me a headache.

I LOVE HOLIDAYS! WAY TOO MUCH! ARGH.

Okay enough of Capslock. My last wisdom tooth is growing and now I'm in great pain :( I'm not whining, I'm just... informing you.



Love,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Ikea, abang and PS3!

I had a week of Cherating, work and abang. Two of my days were taken to download that bloody Dreamweaver which I stayed up all night to check the arsehole progress. Eventually, I only managed to download the trial version. Don't ask me what happened because it was my fault in the first place. Argh.

Degree results hasn't been Jacqkie-excellent so far but it hasn't sucked either. Okie, for my standard (whatever that means) it was just mediocre. Mark my words, I will try my very best to get excellent results in the coming papers and assignments. Frankly speaking, I don't settle for second best. I gave birth to that trait in me when I started Diploma, which I must say was another painful rat race.

For now, I have about a million and one things to do and I'm quite excited though hating the workload to work on the assignments. I admit I have this weird relationship with assignments, I like doing assignments but despise the deadline part of it, basically the ultimate reason it was called an assignment.

The Chocolate Run was due about three weeks ago and my fine is piling up. Anyone going to college please let me know, I need your help to return the book! Instead of borrowing it for free, I'm now renting it! WTF! Learned my lesson, to never borrow books when I have millions of assignments.

I've been spending most of my days with my brother. Initially, I sympathise him because he's always alone so I decided to accompany him for lunches and dinners but now I've realised that we've missed each other's company so much that it really shows in his face as much as he tries not to say it. Though he tries to engage himself with his new PS, he would strike a conversation with me whenever he can. He's still able to make me laugh at his jokes, like he used to when we were growing up. He's still the kinda guy who wouldn't share one bit of his sorrow or sufferings because he expects no one can help him solve it. But, but, he's open up to my advices and solutions nowadays. He listens to me, whenever I am sure of certain things. I've missed him. I've missed his company. It's like replacing those times when he wasn't there for, or with me. We're older, but we know we're the same from the last time we left each other.

I've learned something about life, it's that you can either be happy with the people you love, or make the people you love happy. This of course in assumption that materialism makes everyone happy. Well if you haven't realised, when you can't make it to your parents' birthday you'd FedEx their expensive gift to their house, or even if you can make it for their birthday you'd talk about your work. And you know what's worst? To see myself in those situations. I can't help it but sometimes, I would reconsider my life to maybe, accept second best.

Why do women have to apologise for their success? - Lipstick Jungle


Sweets is back active in sports! I'm so happy for him, because his first love (before he met me *ahem*) was sports! Hence the superfly body and basketball-ish height. I'm glad he's much confident now after the surgery and back kicking balls like he used to. I'm so proud of you baby!

Lastly, I'm in Seventeen Magazine for October Issue. I haven't checked it myself yet, but if you see the mag lying around, check it out :)

Love,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

I need two reverse 2 days

This has got to be the spookiest notice ever, like how can you be (-2) days left for evaluation?


Besides creepy pdf frinter stalking me, I'm all jolly tonight because I had an awesome day complete with awesome dinner, after an awesome movie! and some really, freaking awesome talk with sweets. I mean, how aweeesome is that? I sound like Ashton Kutcher.

Well, I'm few days left for my 2 weeks break, which means more work! Surprised? In university world, holidays means giving you the chance to finish your workload by not taking you away from it. Like, annoying theoretical reading, I'm not saying names but some researchers (KRESS AND VAN LEEUWEN with his other gangbangers) have this habit of developing new form of English. A twisted English.

And oh, I received a call from Mr. Indy that day asking me about proPassion Communications, and I was more than happy to tell him stuffs about that small consultancy! Abang's coming back from Cambodia tomorrow, and I will be back serving him. Well, not that he treats me like a servant, he just bullies me alot. ALOT. Like every elder brothers do to their younger siblings, and darn it, it's not cool. To be honest with you, and I pray to God that you don't read this, I used to spat (I was 10years old) to his drink when I'm angry at him! I know this will taint my image, but (haha) I seriously did that. That was about the first and the... few last times.

Let's be brutally honest with each other. Do you like lies, being lied, lying, or wait scrap lying off, finding out you were lied, basically just knowing that other people lied to you, like do you? Lying comes easy, especially when you've done it so many times, but how really, do you control it when you'd expect not to lie, to the people you don't want to. It comes out easier, and definitely harder... to get yourself at times. And purposely, you'd overlap one lie with another lie and the next thing you know, you're crying in the alley asking for forgiveness for all the lies you've done. Who created lying?

Sorry for the really random talk about lying, it's just I was thinking about it just now for abit. You know those times. And oh, we're talking about us last time hooking up with a certain race before meeting up with each other. And as predicted, Daren was chasing Chinese. I mean preferred Chinese for his own reasons. Well me, I've always wanted to date a chinese as well, though a number of my exes were Chinese and none worked, I've always thought that it's their mentality that intrigued me. How hardworking, smart, and bright these men can be and that fascinated me. Like really. I was never really about the looks (believe me, you'd be so surprised) and, I used to want to date Caucasians. Solely because they are also generally, smarter. In which most cases, I'm not talking in academia, just general knowledge something I can talk about with them.

Hmph, so funny. I wonder why do we put these criterias on people we think we should settle down with.. really?

Okie. I have something to confess as well. I have these urge, of... wanting kids! (oh no, I didn't) In like a having a pet kinda thing. Everytime I see kids, I get all tingly and excited, and what's worst looking at my lecturers caressing their tummy looks so darn comforting! It's too darn sweet, and personally, I think thats how people got pregnant. They see Gwen Stefani petting her tummy, find it cute, and bam they have babies name like Apple and Blanket. Holy smack, not this trend.

Love,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Yeay, you can still kepoh!

I just downed 2 red bulls.

From what you can see I've decided not to make my blog private because some close friends and family members prefers my blog's accessibility. Other than that, I hope whatever's in my blog stays in my blog (who am I kidding, people talk). Thank you!

There are few things I'd like to say before I start-off:

1. The world's getting hotter. PJ's getting hotter. My house is the hottest. no, seriously I sweat even in my lingerie.

2. I'm having a really bad headache thanks to UniSA. Dam right, this is exactly what I asked for when I saw it's 100% assignments course outline.

3. Has turned over a new leaf :)

4. Is glad, my blog is more than just a blog to some people!

Yes, I will answer you what the heck I've actually turned over, to make things easier I've learned to manoeuver relationships and friendships much better. Studies are okay, a little bit stressed I must admit and I HATE waking up early in the morning every single day. I feel like high school all over again, just harder because you'd have to put on makeup and think what to wear - in groggines.

I just finished studying BCB world's ridiculous subject even better the lecturer is inconsiderate and talks like there's a gun pointed at her. And everytime I feel like asking her something, her facial expressions freaked me out, so I decided to just ask my friends instead.

My book is not done, big surprise.. I really don't have time to continue it, sure hope I can during my mid term break. I'm expecting a balanced mid break with works and relaxation in between. And oh, does anyone here know where to get good Mooncakes?

This week was the birthday week, as 3 of my loved ones celebrated their birthday. The food's all good, people's all good, frankly it was kinda tiring to the extend I was really praying to God to give me more than 24 hours a day to get things organised. WTF. I'm using Australian/ UK english already. Other than that, this has got to be the most fattening week in my Cake history and the chubbs is NOT complaining.

So far, I've only visited the Bazaar Ramadhan in Section 14 PJ, and it's not that bad actually. I like bazaar ramadhan because they sell Mata Kucing there. and everything else reminds me of home, cause mummy used to buy cendol and murtabak especially for us back in KK. Now, I have my new family here, Daren who's always there with me doing almost everything together with me :)

Oh which reminds me:

Me: Oooh, mata kucing!
Abang: Sshhh.. say slowly.
Me: ....
Abang: The cats will do this! *closed both his eyes with both his hands*
Me: *walked away*

And if you think you can run away from politics in my blog, you're wrong because indirectly I am updated (my lecturer made me read Malaysian media) with politics. Of course I'm rooting for anyone who has the balls to write and publish, particularly the awesomest journalist: Citizen Nades.

Okay, I'll be done very very soon. One last thing: once and for all, no man and woman can be realllly good friends if either one is single. The single one wouldn't understand the mechanism and limitations that might stir the feelings involve in both parties. For a fact, everyday I see good friends hooking up. Whether it's for the right reason, or (sexually) not.

Okay, britney looks 10 years younger in VMA 2008. and DAMN IT. I'm listening to Miley Cyrus, over and over again. Tolong.

Love,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Saturday, September 06, 2008

No public Access

Friends, Lovers, Haters, Mothers, Aunties, Cousins, Uncles and Anonymouses... if there's such word : I'm changing my blog to private access, if there are no objections nor any complications.

Heads-up, you'll have to keep logging in to your email and send me your email address if you want to keep reading my blog. Tedious, irritating, I know. So please leave comment on the tag box on the right>> if you disagree on this, and I'll reconsider. Thank you :)

Oh, thanks for reading my blog publicly these past 2 years whoever/ wherever you people are.


Reason being, I want to make it more personal (OOOooo) and not be linked to any Google websites.. tell me what you think! :)

Love,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Head somewhere!

I'm losing my head. No, seriously I was talking gibberish, I was imagining things and for goodness sake, I was still so sure about those things I talk about, eventhough I know it's not true. Things started to get messy last weekend when I fixated myself with something I thought would go that way as said, until it didn't and I started developing random thoughts about certain things.

I couldn't even begin to describe in proper words what I'm experiencing now. It's extremely strange, and I think it's solely because I've become a weird person now that I have been hanging around with sweets too much, and not with anyone else anymore. I mean that could be the only reason I could think of, and as much as I love spending countless of times with him (believe me, I seriously do) I think we both wants and most importantly, in need of each other. He's like my antidote and my pain, which makes senses but odd come to think about it.

I need females magazines now! I need faked and believingly real texts who can take me out from this state of mind whatever this is because sincerely, it's a vague place to be in. It's weird. My head feels empty, my heart on the other hand bottles a million and one things. It's a really strange feeling, I can't even use Miley Cyrus' or Pussycat Dolls' songs to lift me up - now that's something. Usually I'd give up of their songs after the first one, but not this time. They're even stuck in my head, and in few seconds I'll click Perez Hilton. As he would say it "OMG".

I'm in a mess. I'm collecting so many thoughts. I NEED PROFFESIONAL HELP.

Love,
Jacqueline Rowena @ Jacqkie.