"I don't know why I got so attached..."- Winehouse
I'm angry at myself. It sucks to be a woman. Not a girl, awoman. I bid in awe the man who invented the term white lies, as it is, clearly, a remakable talent to define it as 'lying-for-your-own-ass-for-your-own-good'. Rite. Experienced with white lies too many, I'm numb with it. and I bet we all are. I'm currently filled with alot of emotions. But then again, I am a woman. This is this, that is that, no means no, yes means yes. Goodness me, why can't I be more, like most men, maybe? Who would take things as it is, and best of all, blardy lives for the present. I am a self-centred, concerned, manipulative 50 year old mother stucked, in a 19 year old's body. I should just live and let live, and ignore the future.
I could smell it. I could hear people talking, yet, I wake up the very next morning, in defiance of my endless thoughts. We're all grown up now,…
I studied the whole weekend so don't give me that look. I got bored, and hungry, so I decided to blog. I'm laughing my brains out watching Ty Barnett on youtube, and man that guy got some serious jokes. You guys should really check him out. Like, seriously.
My brother came over for the weekend, with iPod touch in his hand, which yes, I was in a caveman mode playing with it when he shoved it to me. These canggih things are way too cool for me- by the time I know how to use it, it sure will be outdated already.
Knowing that Man U vs Chelsea will play at 7.30pm last night, I reminded my brother about it, being the sweet guy he is, he told me it's okay that he'll miss the first few minutes of the game to teman me for dinner. So I separated with him after reaching MidValley, couple of minutes later I saw a familiar guy standing witha bunch of other men outside Chillis completely ignorant of the world around them, got their senses locked to the TV Screen.
Yup, this was the reason we missed Shaneil's celebration and catching up with Carol babe.
My poor baby got his shoulder dislocated. Again. This was his third time, and was the most painful according to him. We were in the bus when it happened, and I swear to God, I was very close in tearing right infront of him, but couldn't because I know, it would not help the situation AT ALL. So I toughen up, and completely ignored the world, and focused only on him at that time.
Sorry to everyone for not being able to msg and explain to you guys about it, as I was too busy taking care of him for his x-rays 'till he reached his ward. We had a difficult dinner and I couldn't really sleep at night thinking how he's doing in the hospital alone, in the night. I mean yes, he is a big boy, but he's my big boy now, and I will always be on the lookout for him.
I spent the entire day and night with him in the hospital, and was trying my best to make sure we would have fun with of cour…
I'm so sorry, we couldn't make it for your birthday but we bet you had tons of fun with your closest friends that night and on your birth-day, regardless. Daren and I were also apart of the surprise *grins* and yes, I acted on the 'pretending-not-knowing-who's-birthday-it-was' as well. Thank God, it was online, I would have sucked lying to your face.
Daren and I went to Klang Saturday before the party purposely to just marinade the chicken (how was it anyway?) just for you and Denise! :) I remembered once, you told me that no one really remembered your birthday, and now, that 'statement' is no longer valid okay :)
Sorry this had to happened on your birth-day but I had to take care of poor Daren, and let's just say- we were 'adviced' by his mum not to go out that night. Only God knows, how apologetic and bad we felt for not being able to come to your birthday. TGIF?Seriously!!!!!!!!
To Denise, your awesome for doing such a sweet thing t…
The elderlys are here. My aunts and an uncle reached KL last Tuesday, and everything else is fine, except, work, sick (bad-bad throat, too much... heaty food) and keyboard's finally showing the virus-ed symptoms. Yup, I can't use my left shift key, tab and caps lock. I get occasional funky windows popping out on the computer screen and most importantly it does not detect thumbrives most of the time. The virus has finally danced around.
Other than my physical stuffs bailed on me most of the time, everything else seem normally okay. I should be done with http://propassion.blogspot.com/ this Thursday and I can't wait to shake that Diploma off from me. Back in high school I never thought I would actually have to use my brain for college. You know, the glitz and glamour of how a private college would promise you kinda tricked me la. (Booze, Freedom, Freedom, Freedom... Freedom...) As a matter of fact, I realized I love using this brain of mine. I'm amazed at how much I can b…
"Why do we hurt the most, the ones we love the most" - Yasmin Ahmad(Gubra) I'm sorry if I've hurt anyone in the past few days but I have been very busy with everything that I dont even have the time to take a breather anymore.
The only time I know I'm around and living is when I'm sleeping. Other than that, I'm somewhat derailed and cannot see anything in front of me ironically- I'm constantly moving.
Just like everyone else, I'm constantly tired and questions millions of things in life.
Why are such things repetitive? Why am I on a rocking boat? Why do I get tangled? What is ahead of me? Why can't life be black and white? Why do I keep banging myself on the wall? Why do people lie? Why can't we just give up? Why am I so determined? Why do I keep asking questions? Why dont these things stop pestering me?
Currently, I have a swollen throat and a farked up life. The best part is, everyone around me thinks the same. None of us are the happiest any…
I checked my phone. 9.35AM. Looked around, wondering should I or should I not wake up now. Msgd him-
We spent the whole day in MidValley looking for his futsal shoe. Self-proclaim the cheapest girlfriend in the world, I helped him looking for something I call, "affordable" *couogh-less than RM100*cough* And bought of course, nothing. YET.
As expected, we, or rather HE, did not managed to escape from MPH Bookstores and we actually spent about half an hour there, mind you, actually READING. I was reading this DAMN-IT-I-WANT-THAT-BOOK, Tess Stimson's Infidelity Chain, while he,
...read a book of superheroes.
Trying hard not to give a damn of the speaker behind my back talking loudly about his book, I couldn't help but rationalizing on his Tips for Improptu Speeches: PREP.
First, give a Point. Second, give a Reason for the point you stated. Third, Explain the point. Fourth, might as well add on another P to make it sound nicer.
Current Song: James Morrison- You Give Me Something
Dear Daren Yong A/L Devendran,
I dont give two shits of who'll read this, I just want to express in my public journal of how amazing you are.
We both agree that the L word has only one meaning. Sacrifice. That we both gave up alot of things to live our way, though it may or may not be align with other people's definitions of the L word, we chose to stick to ours.
You've not asked me to change even once since 5 months ago, so I havent, and I'm praying not abit of you will change too. You're the sweetest man I've ever met, and only you know the reason behind all your unbelivably lovely actions. You are the living example of the saying Actions Speak Louder Than Words.
You have that spontaneity in you that I'm dying to possess and I look up to you for that. You have that warmth in you that I'm sure, being with you is the safest thing to do. You're a pleasent gentleman, and I'm glad it's me who'v…