you performing?

The microphone's not working. Three of us shared one mic. I was squashed in between. The song was a bit too corny for me. The crowd was big. The courtyard was hot. The heels were killing me. My friends around. and yes, that was indeed my first time singing in college.

Surprisingly, i wasn't nervous at all.

It was pretty obvious that Kerry my friend who I performed with were shit nervous. She was shaking and her voice was breaking. She performed so many times before, and there i was next to her feeling not even the tiniest bit of scared at all. I performed a couple of times before and yeah, every time i performed it would be painless and fast. Since this particular one i was in college in front of all the people i love and not-really, i should be more scared than before right? but again, i wasn't.

Why? because You're looking at me. Anticipating for us to sing. not me looking at you or me waiting for you to sing. Basically, whatever people infront of me saying- that they should perform and those crap, well guess what, they didn't and i did. i'm infront of you and you're not. Thats one of the reason why i wasn't scared. Screw the expectations or the embrassment, the fact that i'm already infront of them was fullfilling enough and was better than all the compliments or laughters. The fact that i'm the performer not the audience was niceeee.

Singing is not something i live for, my passion my life or anything near that. Most performers live and breath performing. i pity them at times but admire them too, because at least they have talent and passion right? but to me Singing is just a hobby. Or a spare time. Or an interest. or something like a game. where you play with it when you're bored. Performing can be really simple and fun, but not if you expect to knock people of their feet and expect compliments and gets pressured. This is the part where i pity real musicians. They depend on people's compliments and critics to make money. Getting pressured, making music is their bread and butter. My heart goes to you guys so rock on.

Performing- the experience should be priceless. No one forced me to, being the laid-back girl i am, i would go for anything and even if it means singing No Scrubs.

Today was cool. The performance was moderately nice. and the crowd was lovely.

Now i'm more positive that there is absolutely nothing wrong with singing infront of people. or maybe even dancing. or maybe even acting. Just make sure, you can at least follow the beat and everyone will be amazed at how brave you are.

"Performing is not just singing or dancing or acting infront of people. Performing starts the moment you said yes to it, and actually be there and didn't pissed on your pants. It takes more than just a good voice and a good song. It needs the right attitude." -Jacqueline Rowena

Love,
Jacqkie