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the new year's celebration.

last night was the best new year's celebration ever!

before u start visualizing me dancing, drinking and socialising like mad with tons's
of people's phone numbers and getting drunk and tipsy and get hangover for a
great new year's celebration, nope, not that kinda party i enjoyed last night.
It was the family-friends gathering type of party.

some of you might know that i love my family very much. But i guess only a handful of you know that i LOVE THEM VERY VERY much. basically everything i do is for them, my studies, my work, my life... everything..

we all had to sing during that party. you know karaoke kinda thingy. my sister was so convinced that she is not ever going to sing in public, not ever in her lifetime and same goes that night. she turned all of us down every year. but not this year.

well, she has always been the quiet and keep it to the low type of girl and she told me that it
has never been a problem for me and i wouldnt understand her situation beacause i am always the one with the good voice, the performer, the brave one, the charmer,the one that loves everyone and be loved by everyone just like that.

i was surprised to know that she thinks that way, but in a way it was true. i have no problems being spontaneous. it strucked me however when she said that so i decided to prove everyone wrong including her.

for others and me it would be like "alar, just singla.. nothing happend oso, have fun!" right?
not for my sister though.

i was convincing my sister that it's time to face her fear. and she was soooooo very hard to be talked over doing it but eventually she said yes.

i had to be harsh to her and i felt kinda guilty for doing that. but she knew i was right. if she doesnt break out of her shell that night when will she ever be?

i gave her words of encouragements and told her, if she would freak out she could just look at me and take deep breaths. i told her that i would hold her hand if necessary and that i'd be next to her if she's scared and before i knew it, her name was called.

only my mum and i can tell that she was scared. really-really scared. imagine you were on her shoes; she had never ever sang in front of everyone, not even in karaokes, the only time she sings is when she's with me or mum in the shower or in the kitchen or in the living room.

for 14 years of her life, that night was the first time ever she would sing infront of people.

she was trembling at first, she looked at me and smile and started singing gracefully.
she looked confident (but boy was she not!) and that's all that matters. her voice was so sweet and seeing her singing infront of us was one the most beautiful moment ever in my life.
i thought i would never see that and i was proud of her more than ever that night.

she sang Dido's Thank You because she loves that song and she even said personally to me she dedicated the song to me. i was touched to know that but somehow i thought that song was more from me to her than from her to me. because of her, my bad days turn to nice days. because of her, bad things turn to better. because of her, i'm a better person and i change things for her sake.

it meant alot to me and no one knows that except for me.

after she sang, i went and gave her a big bearhug and told her i was so proud of her. she was in an i-dont-understand-what-just-happend mode, and i gave her the time to process what had happened.*giggles*

seconds later, she smiled and looked at me and told me that she was happy she had one fear knocked-down that year. it was all because of me and she thanked me for being by her side all that time.

at the end of the night, winners for the karaoke competition were announced. i won 2nd place for adults. and my sister won 2nd place for 17yrs and below.
she was so surprised herself!



hey, that was amazing for someone who had never sang infront of people before right?




Love,
jacqkie.

Comments

-bba- said…
:)

Kie, kakak also still can't believe when Ika sang...beautifully to boot! Pictures are on my blog, I'll send you the rest of the photos via e-mail if you want.

you know my URL bah kan?
-bba- said…
Ok, teda my URL...

http://reignkarnation.blogspot.com
Anonymous said…
i know! she's awesome!

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